On the Spring Equinox this past weekend, throughout the day I found myself repeatedly feeling irritated, and not about the same things (as in not one topic), but rather about separate things that would occur throughout the day. The first couple of times it wasn’t as obvious, but as it kept happening, I noticed there was a pattern.
The first thing I did was question if what I was experiencing was mine because many times when I feel discordant energy it seems like it isn’t mine. Instead it will feel like something I’m picking up and that is affecting me. In those situations I sense the energy as being outside of myself, and not truly belonging to me, and I’ll ask that the energy be transmuted.
However, on this particular day that did not feel like the case. Rather, it felt more like me as the individual who was repeatedly becoming irritated.
I felt the feelings while at the same time knowing that they weren’t truly me. I could feel the difference between the agitated-frustrated-annoyed feelings, and myself as a person, as a soul, and I knew that they were not ME. When I think of myself, and my essence, who I am, it’s a loving and distinct feeling which feels like me. The agitated feelings that kept coming over me felt like a cap (think a hat, cloak, or when one of your hands makes a fist and the other covers it)—something that can cover as well as be removed from something else because they are separate from each other.
I didn’t take on the feelings like an actor taking on their role for that episode, play, or movie.
I didn’t feel like playing the role of the frustrated-agitated person. I wasn’t going to have it.
I had just gotten an ice tea and was in a deserted parking area, and accelerated in my vehicle letting some of the aggression out, and released through my voice as well. Soon after, I arrived at a family gathering and had a glass of lemon water, which cleanses the system. From then on I chose to enjoy myself, and have a good time engaging with everyone there.
In summary, going to get a tea, releasing some excess energy, and having the lemon water my body was craving basically gave me a reset. That combined with noticing that I wasn’t the agitation and the agitation wasn’t me (that we were separate from each other) and choosing not to resonate with the agitation, along with choosing to enjoy my day (choosing enjoyment is a PIVITOL component of playing ball in the emotional realms) was exactly what I needed to realign and recalibrate my energy, and come into emotional balance.