One day I had an “intuitive story” run through my mind, which can best be described as a sort of download/ knowing/visualization (not a daydream, more like an unfolding pattern of thoughts accompanied by a visualization).
It was a teaching moment…and a valuable one.
I began to see myself in an ornate green hallway (a darker shade of green and a very pretty color). It reminded me of being in a hotel in San Diego, or San Francisco—that kind of old world feel, yet with modern charm.
At first, while walking down this hallway I realized I didn’t feel very confident. I felt like I didn’t deserve to be there.
Like other people might be more deserving, but not me.
I was aware of my thoughts and feelings right away. As a result of my awareness, I changed my thoughts immediately (something through practice I’ve become good at).
The second thought that automatically came in was to act as if I deserved to be there. In other words, to adopt the confidence that I deserved to be there. To walk forward confidently. It’s something I’ve practiced many times before.
It helped change the way I felt, and allowed me to feel more confident…but this mentality required effort. Like I had to try to do it.
THEN a NEW third thought came over me which was
this is here for me to enjoy!
(My mind had begun visualizing an outdoor rooftop pool party at that same building serving refreshments). My thoughts turned to things like this beautiful ornate hallway/building with a rooftop party and refreshments are here for ME to enjoy!
Whoa!! That new thought felt right.
As if it fit like a glove.
While the first two thoughts in the sequence felt like I’d been trying or striving for something, this new thought felt JUST RIGHT. Effortless, relaxing, like I could breathe easier with this newfound awareness, this new way of thinking.
It felt right because of its truth.
Thoughts one and two were based on limited thinking, or in other words not fully being in alignment. They involved feeling less than, and trying to force something, while the third thought was in alignment and allowed me to feel like myself. An awesome feeling, excited, truly enjoying life (and all its offerings) version of myself. It was a feeling that just flowed (no effort, no resistance).
I am grateful for The Green Hallway and will continue to implement this mindset. I’ve been bringing this teaching forward with me into life and applying it to situations where I might have had a tendency to feel uncomfortable.
Instead of trying to combat the feelings, now I think to myself this is here for me to enjoy!
I went through a quick mindset shift from not feeling good enough, to telling myself you are good enough/I am confident and deserve to be here just like anyone else (a little shaky ground, but holding my space), to a complete mindset shift where none of those thoughts were in play any longer, and instead there was wonderment and enjoyment walking along the hallway as I thought this is here for my enjoyment!
It was the same outer scenario—that part never changed—but it was my own beliefs, my own ways of thinking that shifted, and in doing so, gave me three very different internal experiences.
This is how powerful our inner thoughts and beliefs are. This is how powerful we are. Shifting a belief has the ability to shift our life.